Mid-sem break resolutions

This was me in my depressed state of mind. I'm over it now.

So today is the start of a nine day break from school for me and everyone who goes to school in the Maldives. And I have a lot to do. For starters, I haven't done any work in Mathematics since school started almost two months ago. I know. I'm not exactly proud of myself for that. Also I have no clue in most of the subjects I study, because I have been so distracted for the past few months that I haven't actually been paying attention.

So anyway, I want to do all sorts of fun and exciting things this holiday. Although, even I say it I know its a far-fetched plan. My priority right now, is obviously, getting back on track in my studies. I am going to set targets and try to reach them. I'm only blogging about it because, if I don't tell you guys about it, I won't take it seriously.

On a less serious note, did you know that Vitamin E is good for your skin? My doctor gave me a few vitamin capsules and I have been using them for the past week or so, and I swear my skin feels good. And are you one of those people whose minds are reflected in the state of their bedrooms? I am one of them. If I am all organised and I know what I'm doing my room would be clean and organised. And if I am confused and messed up my room would be messy. And right now, its kindda messy so I'm gonna clean it up so I could get back on track. So yes, I'll talk to you later. Ciao.

Bursting Ariel's Bubble

So this is a very abstract post. A couple of weird things that have been on my mind.
So I was thinking what if Prince Eric (from the Little Mermaid) didn't actually like Ariel. Maybe he felt bad for her. Maybe he felt bad for the girl who was crazy about him and went to unbelievable lengths (leg transplants.. anyone?) so she could be with him. What if he was too nice to let her down and burst her bubble? So he's just playing along silently.
And what if there was a merman in the sea who is just as crazy about Ariel as she's abut Eric? What if this merman never got a chance because Ariel is too blind to see anyone besides Eric? Whoa. Mindblown. :|
And obviously Ariel needs an explanation. Maybe Eric should prove his love to her somehow. Idk.
BTW I like Ariel. But I found whole plot of The Little Mermaid completely crazy. You don't give up everything you have for someone you SAW a minute ago. Its just something you shouldn't do. I don't know. Maybe Ariel deserves better. :3

Doctors that make you feel good.

Almost a week ago, an Economics teacher said something that has been stuck in my head for a while now. While explaining the concept of utility (or it could have been something else) she casually said:
"You know, some doctors make you feel good even before they treat you. Just by the way they talk they can make you feel better."

And I thought. THAT IS SOO TRUE. I've been to quite a few doctors myself in the past couple of months and one thing that always assured me is the way the doctor talks to me. One smile can make me feel more relaxed and calm. Although in my normal happy mood I am very calm and carefree, when something bad happens, I suddenly become Worry Woman.

I worry about everything. Every little thing, and the worst part is that nothing can stop me from going nuts over small things. Some people may call me crazy but I always believe that anything is possible. Although that mentality is usually a good one that's gonna lead you to success, in my case, it is a disaster. Because I always arrive at the worst possible scenario and start worrying about it. Maybe that came from the "keep your expectations low and you wont be disappointed" principle. I find it ironic that all these wise self-help quotes have the opposite effect on me. Maybe I have trouble interpreting things. *Sigh*

Anyway, lately, I have been a bit of a hypercondriac. I always fear that I might be sick. I can't sleep at night because I think I'm sick. I can't eat because I think I'm sick. I can't have a good time because I think I'm sick and its taking over my life. The truth is, I just worry too much and Google doesn't help much.
I have this really bad habit of looking up my symptoms on Google. And I almost always have cancer or I might be pregnant or something like that. The more I worry about what Google says, the crazier I become. Its always best to rely on Dr. The-Guy-In-The-Hospital rather than Dr. Google.

As for the doctor in the hospital, I visited him today and I feel a lot better. I showed him the stuff I was going bananas over and he just laughed and gave some medicine, asked me to do some tests and had me inject some stuff into my body. And honestly, I feel so much more relaxed right now. I mean he knows better than me about these things. So yeah I've decided to trust him.

If there's anything I've learned though, it is that:
1. Overthinking can only make things worse.
2. If you wanna be a doctor, be a nice one. And always smile at people. It can make a huge difference. And     never ever ever be mad at them. Ever.
3. There's always hope.

What's old, new and coming up next.

I know I haven't blogged in a loong time and I thought I would never blog again for some reason. But here I am blogging away!
So what am I up to these days? For starters, I'm back in school studying for my A levels. So far school has been good. I have a class full of girls and one boy and that's kind of fun. Its always fun making fun of him for being the only boy. We have been telling him that we would turn him into a girl by the end of these two years. We may be joking or we may be dead serious about that. :3
Well there has been a lot going on in my head for the past few weeks and I really really needed to let myself go and enjoy life again. So I am definitely gonna be blogging a lot and I think I'm gonna go back to my favourite hobby back in the days. PAINTING! YAYY!
I used to paint a lot as a child and it has always been my way of expressing how I feel. I'm not very verbal about my feelings because honestly hate to involve people in my problems. And as for painting, I shall quote my sister:

"The best thing about painting is you can say whatever you want in everyone's face and no one will have a clue about what you just said."

When I paint I don't really like to stick to just colour pencils and paints. Sometimes I like to stain the paper with flowers or leaves or mud or even my make up. There's just something so liberating about that. And I was love experimenting with natural dyes. I once collected a lot of leaves and flowers and weird little berries from my backyard and tried to paint with them. And it did turn out quite good I'd say. Haha. See, I'm already excited about it. Anyway, I think I've said enough. Hopefully the next time you see me post, you'll see some artwork. Adios. Oh and that's one thing I've tried in the past couple of months. Learning Spanish. I quit halfway through. But I can say Adios so I'm happy.

Rainy days

I just love rainy days. They are always relaxing for me and I know a lot of you feel the same way.
I think rainy days are perfect for:

• Hot cocoa or tea
• Watching a nice movie
• Sleeping
• Reading a good book
• Listening to Jack Johnson
• Painting
• Make paper boats 
• And of course, playing in the rain

Honestly, you can do all sorts of relaxing things on rainy days. Those are just a few things I could think of right now. I'm sure you have a lot more creative ideas in your head. Feel free to share them.
It has been raining all day today I'm just very happy. I was reading The Adventures of Tom Sawyer earlier and I went out a while ago. I just love how everything looks so beautiful when they are covered in rain.

 

Oh, and I tried to make my own paper boat. Doesn't look THAT good but I'm proud of myself. And for those of you who'd like to feel lazy and relaxed on a rainy day, just click below. Banana Pancakes

never lets me down on rainy days. :)

So, I hope you enjoy this very very beautiful rainy day. Stay in, cuddle up, enjoy the sky's tears. OMG. THAT SOUNDS SADISTIC :O You get the point though, right? ;) Have fun.

The truth about now

Right before we all finished our O levels, we had a big happy picture in our heads. To each of us, the end of the O levels symbolized something exciting and new. To some it was the permission to date and hang out with friends. To others its getting a job or going to college. And to people like me, it was the pure taste of unrestricted freedom.
However, life isn't all black and white. You can't wake up one morning and suddenly get everything you ever wanted. These things take time and patience. And even as I say this I know how lame and soul-crushing that sounds.  However, the point is, our idea of what post-school life might have been just a tad bit overrated.
The truth is, after a while, you miss the stability. You miss the familiarity of having friends who understand you and stick by your side through thick and thin. You miss all the times you've trolled the teacher. You miss getting into trouble. You miss not being able to wait to go to school the next day because you have to give your friends some exciting news. You miss being crazy.
And even if you all hang out together, you are going to miss the rules. You are going to miss the uncomfortable uniform we all love to hate. You are going to miss having a teacher to pull you all apart. But that is all part of life. Isn't it?  Let me quote something from one of my favorite books, the Perks of Being a Wallflower by Stephen Chbosky.

"Things change. Friends leave. But life doesn't stop for anybody."

But there are some friends you've known for only a short time, but you know that you can't ever let them go, even if you wanted to.  As for me, my friends are so crazy sometimes I think they might kidnap me and force me to miss them. I will always love my old friends, but I want to mention Shunie, Sara, Nashu and Anoo because I think out of all my best friends I've known them for the least amount of time. But that doesn't make me love them less.
So as I said, things change and you have to go on with your life, but you should always slow down and make some time for your friends from now, because they loved you for who you are. And they don't mind it when you say stupid things or act silly. In fact, they'd probably join you. Those are your real friends.
And those of you who can still see your friends everyday, have as much fun as you can, and act as crazy as you can, because pretty soon, you would be expected to act all mature and responsible. And trust me when I say, its not a lot of fun. So just enjoy 'now' because 'now' is all we have. 

Blissful morning

I'll be honest, now that I don't have to go to school anymore, I don't really witness mornings. I sleep until noon and until  now I never realized how much I am missing out on.
This morning I woke up early and was surprised at how beautiful everything looked. It rained a little last night and everything was covered in tiny rain drops, and it looked so beautiful. The smell of rain and mango blossoms lingered in the air as I listened to the birds chirp in the distance. I just couldn't help but feel relaxed and blessed to be part of something so beautiful. 

The best fish and chips ever.

So this Saturday my friends Nadha and Raya cooked. I just stood there taking photographs. 

Originally, we had planned to make potato wedges, but nothing really goes according to plan when we're around. Anyway, it turned out to be the best fish and chips ever made. 
The fries were perfectly crispy. The sauce was delicious. And the fish was the best part of it. All thanks to Nadha. I would pay a thousand bucks to taste something like that again. :3
And I almost forgot to mention Shiekko's magic piano music in the background. It really did add to the effect. 

Dat Schaub :3 My friends and I can't be the only ones who see the humor in that. 

The fries being fried.

The few seconds before the legendary sauce came into existence.

Le legendary sauce. You guys should really taste it.

Raw fish.

And Tada! Here it is. The best fish and chips ever made. 

I hope you guys enjoyed this post. And and stay tuned for more. Toodles. Thats goodbye, in French. I'm just kidding. I can't even speak French. Mwahahaha,

The cats and I.

Before you ask, let me tell you that I do not own any pet cats. And I certainly do not plan on getting one anytime soon, unless it is a fat orange cat whom I could name Garfield.
However, there are a lot of cats living in my backyard and I have developed a strange fascination towards them. Sometimes I 'meeow' at them. And whenever I have a camera in my hand I just could not resist photographing them. Perhaps the conspiracy theorists on the internet are right. The world IS being dominated by cats. Just like ancient Egyptian times. *Sigh*

Brace yourselves.

Hi everybody.
I know I haven't really introduced myself yet. I really want to but I honestly don't know what to say. Sorry. But hey, you will learn about me in time, right? And hopefully, I'll learn something about you.
Okay. I know you are thinking.. Why on earth is she blogging?
To be honest, I have been interested in this kind of thing for a while now. My sister is a blogger and now a few of my friends are too. I DID blog a few times before. But somehow I ran out of inspiration and I never really believed that I could do it. But yeah. Here I am embarking on a fresh start. I am so very very nervous.
There are still a few months before I start my A levels -which I am very excited about - and I thought maybe I could start blogging. Share things I find interesting, my thoughts. As the title says this is a diary of the curious. And yes, I am curious. So brace yourselves earthlings. Haha. I hope that sounded good. Yayy!!!

 God! I am nervous. :D