Saturday, August 12, 2017

Toothless at twenty one

After toying with the idea for several months, last week I finally decided to get braces. I have heard about the inconveniences of it over and over again but I was still left unprepared for the journey to come.

The first consultation with my orthodontist was fairly straight forward. He told me that he was going to put braces on my upper teeth, and he did. He then mentioned that I had to get four teeth extracted (2 top, 2 bottom) before he can put braces on the rest of my teeth. I didn't think much of it.

The day after the first consultation was painful. I skipped my college classes that day and I felt guilty about it because I hadn't missed a single class this semester. I couldn't eat anything except yogurt because my teeth were too sore for me to bite into anything. The pain gradually subsided. The very next day I got a tooth extracted. Four days later, today, I got another extracted. To be honest, I do not look too great. My mouth reminds me of the old witches from the books I used to read as a child. I cannot comprehend how embarrassing it would be when they get the rest of my teeth removed.

I miss my teeth but I feel like this is a good opportunity for me to redefine what personal beauty means to me. It is a chance for me to learn to feel good about myself come what may. I feel beautiful but I will probably not smile as much in public as I used to for a while.

I hope I eventually get over having four missing teeth. And I hope the braces will do their magic and fill those gaps pronto.

Sunday, February 12, 2017

Eyna mareh nuvey

This is a new beginning for me and this blog. I would have started a new blog entirely but my boyfriend insists that my old posts were funny, so I'll keep them. Personally, I would recommend you stay as far away from them as possible. I am a completely different person now than I was before and I am older and slightly wiser.

When we last talked, I was going through some difficult things and I still am but I am significantly better at dealing with them now. And objectively speaking, and I don't mean to brag, but I have got my life together (for now).  After almost a year of trial and error and extensive soul searching that would probably not have made Buddha proud but would have pleased a pseudo spiritual guru on YouTube who drinks weird green juices and has a hundred chakra points, I have decided to start blogging again.

Bear with me as I stumble, fall and awkwardly stutter as I show you the universe inside my tiny insignificant human mind. So, my dear reader, proceed at your own risk.

TLDR; I am not dead.